ALL PACKED AND READY TO GO I SIT HERE WAITING FOR MY RIDE TO NYC AND THE CRUISE SHIP--LAST NITE I WAS BORED SO I SHOWERED AROUND 11PM AND WENT TO ESCUELITA-- IT WAS MY FIRST TIME THERE ON A SAT NITE SINCE FEB 06 AND IT WAS QUITE AN EXPERIENCE- THE A.C. WASNT EXACTLY IN WORKING CONDITION(WHAT'S NEW) AND IT WAS PACKED TO THE HILT- I WAS SOMEWHAT OVERWHELMED BY THE CROWD AND DECIDED TO SIT PERCHED IN THE DRESSING ROOM TILL SHOWTIME - MANY THOUGHTS RAN THROUGH MY HEAD --DO I WANT TO COME BACK TO ALL THIS ? IS THERE MORE FOR ME OUT THERE THAN THIS? DO I REALLY NEED THE STRESS AND DRAMA IN MY LIFE? I HAVE A MEETING W/MY BOSS AND WILL BE CONTEMPLATING MY RETURN TO LA NUEVA -ALTHOUGH MY BOSS HAS HELPED ME OUT DURING MY TIME OF NEED I STILL FEEL (AND MANY OTHERS) THAT THE CLUB COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING COLLECTIVELY AS WELL-- WHY WERE THE TWO BENEFIT SHOWS HELD IN OTHER LOCATIONS WHEN THIS IS CONSIDERED MY HOME? EVEN THE EMPLOYEES I THOUGHT I WAS COOL WITH AFTER 8 YEARS OF BEING WITH THEM KINDA PAID ME DUST(NOT ALL-SOME)AND THAT HURT ALOT AS WELL--SO THIS TRIP COMES AT THE RIGHT TIME -- FEEL FREE TO COMMENT ON HOW U FEEL IF U HAVE THOUGHTS ON IT --UPON MY RETURN I WILL HIT U ALL UP AND LET U KNOW WHAT DIRECTION MISS SUNBEAM IS HEADING IN AND THE REASONS FOR IT- HAVE A BLESSED AND STRESS-FREE WORK WEEK AND I WILL CHAT WITH U UPON MY RETURN TO JERSEY CITY ON 6/5/06--SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO QUEENS PRIDE AND JERSEY PRIDE BEING HELD 6/4 SINCE I WONT BE HERE TO ENJOY THE FESTIVITIES---CIAO

HEY ALL- SOME OF THE CHILDREN ARE ALREADY AT THEIR HOLIDAY DESTINATION PERCHED AND WAITING IN LONG RIDICULOUS LINES TO PAY INFLATED CLUB PRICES WHILE OTHERS HAVE OPTED TO STAY HOME AND KEEP THE FRONT PORCH COMPANY- I AM UP EARLY HEADING OUT TO GET A HAIRCUT AND TAKE CARE OF SOME LAST MINUTE THINGS B4 I GO TO MY SISTERS TODAY - TOMORROW IS THE DAY OF DEPARTURE FOR THE FAMILY TRIP STARTING WITH A BIG BREAKFAST AND THEN OFF TO THE PIER IN NY (NOT THE ONE WE NORMALLY FREQUENT )-- I WILL DO ONE MORE ENTRY IN THE MORN AND WILL KEEP U IN MY PRAYERS AND HOPEFULLY U WILL DO THE SAME FOR ME AND MY FAMILY- YESTERDAY B4 THE RAIN HIT I WAS INVITED TO GO TO THE MOVIES -FEELING A LITTLE BORED I SAID YES UNTIL I FOUND OUT MY FRIENDS WERE GOING TO SEE POSIEDON AND I DECIDED TO STAY HERE AND KEEP MY THOUGHTS POSITIVE ON THE UPCOMING TRIP(DONT NEED NO DRAMA HERE)-TAKE CARE - BE SAFE AND ENJOY YOURSELF!

HEY -LOTS GOING ON HERE- APPLAUSE TO TAYLOR HICKS AMERICANS OLDEST LOOKING I MEAN NEWEST AMERICAN IDOL--I DIDNT WATCH THE FINAL EPISODE JUST WAITED TO I WOKE UP THIS MORN TO HEAR THE DETAILS- TODAY WAS MY DAY TO GO DOWN TO WELFARE AND ACTIVATE MY BENEFITS CARD-- CAN I TELL U DRAMA? ITS SAD HOW U ARE TREATED- LINE AFTER LINE, RULE AFTER RULE AND THE EMPLOYEES DONT KNOW OR CARE ABOUT THE ANSWERS TO YOUR QUESTIONS-- LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO GET BACK ON MY FEET FOR A 9-5 AND MAKE THIS AS TEMPORARY AS POSSIBLE(I MEAN THIS ONE) -- ON TO BETTER THINGS THOUGH-AS THE KIDS PREPARE TO DASH OUT THE OF THE CITY TO VARIOUS HOLIDAY HOT SPOTS I WISH U A HAPPY AND SAFE MEMORIAL WEEKEND--AS YOU KNOW(IF U READ THIS ENUFF) I WONT BE IN TOWN FOR A WEEK(FAMILY CRUISE) SO THE LAST ENTRY WILL BE THIS SUNDAY AND IT WILL BE ABOUT 8 DAYS B4 U SEE ANOTHER ONE- IM CONFIDENT I WILL BE FINE OUT THERE ON THE HIGH SEAS BUT PRAY FOR ME AS WELL AND HOPEFULLY PEEPS WHO ARE LOOKING FOR ME WILL READ THIS AND KNOW IM JUST FINE AND THAT THERE IS NO DRAMA GOING ON-- IM OUT FOR NOW - TALK SOON!

THE KIDS CAME OUT REALLY LATE LAST NITE BUT IT WAS LOTS OF FUN- THE PRESS(HX AND NEXT) WERE THERE AS WELL AS A GAGGLE OF DRAGS AND LOCAL CELEBRITIES-- LADY BUNNY, SHERRY VINE, JOEY ARIAS, DIRTY MARTINI, SHABOOM BOOM,FLOTILLA DEBARGE, WILLIE NINJA AND A HOST OF OTHERS WERE THERE TO SPREAD THE LOVE AT LOVE --THE TURNOUT WASNT AS BIG AS THE LANGSTON'S FUNCTION BUT THE ENERGY WAS OVER THE TOP - WE HAD LOTS OF DJ'S AS WELL- CHIP CHOP GONALEZ, FRED PIERCE, KEN TERRY, DJ RELENTLESS, ADAM GOLDSTONE, TROY PARISH--- I WANT TO THANK ALL THAT CAME OUT AND ALL THAT PLANNED TO BUT COULDNT MAKE IT-ONCE AGAIN I AM INSPIRED TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER AND COME BACK TO THE PLACE I LOVE(THE STAGE)--THE OPRAH SHOW WAS HOT AS WELL --SHE IS NO JOKE -SOMETHING TOLD ME TO INVITE HER TO THE BENEFIT BUT WHEN I CALLED HER CELL HAD BEEN DISCONNECTED(LOL)-- U GO OPRAH-- KEEP MAKING THE BLACK RACE AND ESPECIALLY WOMEN SHINE!---WHEN I GROW UP I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE HER --ONLY A SIZE 8 THOUGH--THIS WEEK MAY BE CRAZY FOR ME MY HOME ATTENDANT CALLED OUT LAST WEEK AND THE HOUSE IS A MESS- HER TIME HERE IS RUNNING OUT AND I WILL SOON HAVE TO FEND FOR MYSELF-- MY WELFARE CASE WENT THROUGH SO NOW I HAVE TO GO DOWN AND ACTIVATE MY CARD---THINGS ARE LOOKING UP AND BY GOD'S WILL I SHALL RETURN TO THE MASSES AND REIGN AS THE QUEEN OF COMEDY!!!(APPLAUSE)-- AS U CAN SEE IM FEELING EXTRA TODAY SO LET ME CLOSE OUT FOR NOW AND WE SHALL TALK SOON!

HEY ALL-- WELL I DETOXED OVER THE WEEKEND TO GET RID OF ALL THE JUNK I CONSUMED IN ATL-- WASNT PRETTY AT ALL--THINGS CAME OUT THAT I HADNT EVEN EATEN (STRANGE HUH?)--ON TO MORE LIGHTER SUBJECTS - THERE ARE TWO BIG EVENTS TONITE DONE BY TWO POWERFUL BLACK WOMEN - OPRAH AND ME!-- OPRAH'S LEGEND BALL IS BEING SHOWN TONITE FROM 8-9PM (WHAT HAPPENED TO MY INVITE MOMMA?) AND MY BENEFIT SHOW IS BEING HELD IN MANHATTAN STARTING AT 10PM WITH 2 SHOWS AND DANCING- THE CLUB IS CALLED LOVE AND ITS LOCATED ON 8TH ST AND MCDOUGAL (HEART OF THE VILLAGE)-I JUST WANNA THANK ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH THIS TEST OF FAITH -- DONT WORRY THE BEAM WILL BE BACK STRONGER AND FUNNIER THAN EVER-- THE WEATHER SHOULD BE CUTE SO COME OUT AND PLAY- FOR THOSE WHO CANT MAKE IT (WORK OR RELIGIOUS REASONS) THERE WILL BE FULL DETAILS POSTED ON THE BLOG TOMORROW AFTERNOON-- WITH THAT BEING ALL- KEEP THE FAITH AND LOVE YOURSELF!

THOSE OF U WHO COULDNT MAKE IT ON THURSDAY MISSED A REALLY GREAT PARTY--THE WEATHER WAS REALLY TRICKY AT TIMES BUT THE KIDS CAME OUT-- IT MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD -SO MANY FAMILIAR FACES--I HAD TO STOP MYSELF FROM BREAKING DOWN THROUGHOUT THE NITE-- PEEPS FROM BACK IN THE DAY , PEEPS FROM ESCUELITA AND OTHER CLUBS AND PEEPS FROM RADIO CITY--GAY, STRAIGHT, BI , THUGS, LESBIANS, TRANSGENDER AND MANY MORE WERE ON HAND-- THE SHOW WAS FUN TOO- HOSTED BY TYRA ALLURE AND KAREN COVERGIRL- SPECIAL PERFORMANCES BY LUSCIOUS, SHORTY , DAWN TALLMAN AND DARRYL D'BONNEAU-- DJ'S INCLUDED KEN TERRY , UNKNOWN, FRED PIERCE, LA THOMAS AND ANGEL C- SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO LEE SOULJA AND MASTER ROB--APPLAUSE FOR LANGSTONS AS WELL !!--IT FELT GOOD TO GRACE THE STAGE AND CLOSE OUT THE SHOW WITH A FEW WORDS -- I HAD TO CHANNEL HARMONICA TO DEAL WITH IT CUZ DORIAN WOULD HAVE JUST BEEN A CRYING MESS-- THE TOTALS ARE IN AND I AM HAPPY TO SAY $3000.00 WAS RAISED THAT EVENING - THANK U JESUS- THERE IS ANOTHER BENEFIT HAPPENING MONDAY 5/22 ALTHOUGH NEXT MAG SAYS ITS ON WED - IF U NEED INFO HIT ME UP AT TRAKK13@AOL.COM--I AM FEELING MUCH BETTER THESE DAYS AND WILL KEEP U ABREAST OF A POSSIBLE COMEBACK SHOW IN MANHATTAN LATE SUMMER-- THANKS AGAIN TO ALL OF U FOR YOUR SUPPORT, LOVE AND ENCOURAGEMENT!!!!!!!

HEY KIDS - HAD A GOOD TIME IN ATL -- SAW MY LONGTIME BUDDY AND WE HUNG OUT FOR A BIT- ATTEMPTED TO ATTEND THE MONDAY NITE SHOW AT THE JUNGLE--WE WERE ASKED TO MOVE SINCE WE DIDNT HAVE TABLE RESERVATIONS(WHO KNEW)-WELL IT SEEMS ALL THE TABLES WERE BOOKED AND SINCE I CANT STAND FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME(THE SHOW HADNT STARTED) WE DASHED AND CAME BACK HOME AFTER A QUICK TRIP TO KRYSTAL'S(FAKE WHITE CASTLE)-- I ATE SO MUCH JUNK I WILL TRULY BE DETOXING THIS WEEKEND--ON TO THE DRAMA-SO ANTM HAS A NEW FACE NAMED DANIELLE - I REALLY GAGGED SINCE I THOUGHT THE WHITE CHICK WOULD WALK AWAY WITH IT HANDS DOWN SINCE JADE HAS ATTITUDE ISSUES AND DANIELLE NEEDED SOME VOCAL COACHING- TYRA THREW A MONKEY WRENCH UP IN THAT SERVICE---THEN ON IDOL THEY GOT RID OF THE KEEBLER ELF ELLIOTT-AS U CAN SEE I WASNT A BIG FAN OF HIS ANYWAY-THE REAL SHADE WILL BE THIS WEEK WHEN THE GRAY HAIRED GUY WINS IDOL AND NO ONE ELSE WANTS TO ENTER ANYMORE--JUST KIDDING-- SO AS I WRITE THIS ENTRY I AM DRESSED AND READY TO GO TO THE BENEFIT IN BKLYN TONITE- I HEAR IT SHOULD BE A NICE TURNOUT- OF COURSE THOSE OF U WHO DONT MAKE IT -- THE FULL REPORT WILL BE RIGHT HERE --UPDATES--MY SISTER IS DOING FINE SHE JUST FEELS A LITTLE "SPACEY" FROM TIME TO TIME-- NO WORD FROM MY DOCTOR ON MY LABS- I CALLED AND ASKED HIM TO MAIL ME A COPY SO MAYBE THATS WHATS GOING ON WITH THAT-- NO WORD FROM FOOD STAMPS/WELFARE -- DID ANYONE HEAR WENDY WILLIAMS MENTION THE BENEFIT ON THE RADIO? SOMEONE SAID I WAS MENTIONED WHILE I WAS OUT OF TOWN BUT OF COURSE IT WAS SOMEONE ELSE WHO TOLD THEM -THATS IT FOR NOW- THE CAR IS HERE-- TALK SOON!
KEEP GOD FIRST!

HEY GUYS AND GALS- HOPE U ALL HAD A FESTIVE MOTHERS DAY FOR THOSE THAT THIS COULD APPLY TO -- THE WEATHER WAS CUTE AND THE LADIES WERE OUT- I WENT FOR A RIDE WITH A FRIEND AND SAW MANY A DAZZLING OUTFIT -- IT WAS LIKE EASTER PART 2--HERE WE GO - ITS A CRAZY WEEK FOR ME -A HIGH SCHOOL FRIEND CONTACTED ME AFTER HEARING THE DRAMA W/ME AND SPONSORED A TRIP TO ATL FOR ME TO COME OUT AND RELAX-- I AM LEAVING AT NOON AND WILL BE BACK THURS MORN-- IM A LITTLE NERVOUS TRAVELING BUT GOD IS WITH ME AND IT SHALL BE JUST FINE--I AM STILL WORKING AND RESEARCHING ON ALTERNATIVE METHODS TO BUILD MY IMMUNE SYSTEM UP IN CONJUCTION W/THE MEDS-- THROUGH RESEARCH I HAVE FOUND THE KEY TO ANY REJUVENATION IS WHAT U EAT-- THERE IS SO MUCH JUNK OUT THERE LABELED AS "FOOD" AND AS A IMMUNE COMPROMISED INDIVIDUAL I NEED TO BE VERY WARY OF WHAT I PUT IN MY MOUTH THESE DAYS(DON'T BE SHADY)-- SO LET ME FINISH SOME LAST MINUTE THINGS AND FOR THOSE COMING OUT TO THE THURSDAY NITE FUNCTION AT LANGSTONS MAKE SURE U SAY HI TO ME-- I GOT SO MANY EMAILS FROM PEEPS WHO NEVER GOT A CHANCE TO MEET ME BECAUSE THEY WERE SHY AND AFRAID TO APPROACH THE SEXY MAN WITH THE WIG ON -- WELL THIS COMING THURSDAY IS YOUR CHANCE! I WONT BE IN A WIG THOUGH SO U TRANNY CHASERS OUT THERE GET OVER IT!--OK - ENUFF CHATTER FOR NOW -- I WILL DO A BLOG ENTRY FROM THE INTERNET CAFE ON PEACHTREE ST OR IS IT DRIVE OR BLVD(U KNOW THEY GOT LIKE 8 BLOCKS WITH THE SAME NAME)-- TALK SOON -- CIAO

HEY U ALL -- WHATS HOT AND NEW? THANKS FOR YOUR REPLIES WHENEVER I ASK U PEEPS A QUESTION- MAKES ME KNOW SOMEONE IS READING THE BLOG-- THINGS ARE COOL - THE COMP GUY CAME ON THURSDAY AND CHECKED THINGS OUT FOR ME-- GOT MY COMP ALL SPEEDED UP AND THINGS -- CLEANED OUT SOME FILES AND RESET MY PRINTER-- HE ASKED ME ABOUT PROTECTION AND IF I HAD A VIRUS AND I THOUGHT HE WAS COMING ON TO ME BUT IT WAS IN REFERENCE TO THE COMPUTER (DAMN)-- MY DOC CALLED AND SAID MY LABS FINALLY CAME IN - WE WILL PROBABLY DISCUSS THEM SOMETIME EARLY NEXT WEEK- I JUST THANK GOD TO BE STILL LIVING - CANT WORRY ALOT ABOUT THOSE NUMBERS CUZ ITS LIKE GETTING A REPORT CARD-- GOOD ONE WILL LIFT YOUR SPIRITS BUT A BAD ONE CAN BRING A GIRL DOWN (U FEEL ME)-- ONCE AGAIN I WILL BE MAKING AN APPEARANCE AT THE TWO BENEFIT SHOWS NEXT WEEK (THURSDAY AND MON) HIT ME UP IF U NEED MORE INFO--THE WEATHER IS CUTE TODAY AND I HAVE 3PM APPT IN THE CITY FOR SOME STUFF IM TRYING TO CLEAR UP(MEETING W/MY BOSS)-- ANYONE GOING TO PR FOR MEMORIAL WEEKEND? HOW ABOUT DC OR MIAMI? I WILL BE PERCHED ON A FAMILY VACATION (THANK GOD I PAID LAST YEAR) FROM 5/28-6/5 -- IT SHOULD BE CUTE AND FESTIVE FOR AT LEAST THE FIRST 2 DAYS (LOL)--WELL HAVE A BLESSED WEEKEND AND I WILL HIT U ALL UP AGAIN REAL SOON-MUAH !

HEY GUYS- HOPING ALL IS WELL WITH U ALL--THANKS FOR YOUR PRAYERS FOR MY SISTER SHE IS DOING FINE - I AM ALSO IN GOOD SPIRITS DESPITE MY SHINGLES ITCHING/PAIN -- I FOUND A PRODUCT ONLINE THAT I THINK HAS HELPED ME OUT ALOT-AS I PROGRESS MORE EACH WEEK I HAVE DECIDED TO ONLY HAVE MY HOME ATTENDANT COME ONE DAY AS OPPOSED TO THE TWO WE STARTED OFF WITH - SHE WILL NOW BE HERE (HOPEFULLY ON TIME) FRIDAY MORNS--STAY TUNED FOR THE SEASON FINALE ON THAT ONE--- SPEAKING OF SEASON FINALES AND DRAMA-- I ATTEMPTED TO MAKE SEVERAL CALLS LAST NITE TO TYRA BANKS AND SIMON COWELL--WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ANTM AND IDOL? THE SHADE FACTORS ARE EXTREMELY HIGH AND THE COLOR IS CAYENNE--JADE IS STILL BEING A HOT SHADY MESS AND THEY GOT RID OF MY NEW HUSBAND ON IDOL-- I WAS DEVASTATED LAST NITE AND TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER I GORGED ON FRESH CHOCOLATE CAKE W/STRAWBERRY FROSTING-- KNOWING THAT I CANT HAVE SUGAR BUT I SAID F*CK IT!---THE MOMENT HAS PASSED AND I AM MOVING ON -- WAITING TO HEAR FROM MY DOCTOR FOR TEST RESULTS (NO BIG RUSH)ALSO LOOKING INTO A NJ/NY HOLISTIC DOCTOR-- IF ANYONE OUT THERE CAN RECOMMEND ONE I WOULD BE VERY APPRECIATIVE--AS THE WEATHER BREAKS HOPEFULLY I WILL GET OUT MORE AND BECOME HUMAN AGAIN-- I AM UP THIS EARLY SINCE THE COMPUTER REPAIR GUY SET MY APPT FOR 7AM-- I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THEY CAME THAT EARLY-- AS I WRITE THIS I AM SEARCHING FOR MY BEST NITE GOWN AND CHANEL LIPSTICK---LET ME GO AND PREPARE MYSELF FOR THIS VISITOR -WHO KNOWS HE MAY BE THE NEXT MR.SUNBEAM!

HELLO ALL-BEEN OUT OF IT FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS-- JUST NEEDED SOME ME TIME -- SUNDAY WAS PRETTY QUIET AND I SUPRISED A FRIEND BY GOING TO HER SHOW AT THE DUPLEX WHICH WAS FUN AND THEN I PROCEEDED TO HEAD UP TO ESCUELITA SINCE I HADNT SEEN MOST OF THEM SINCE MARCH IST--MY BOSS WAS HAPPY TO SEE ME AND WE CHATTED - I STAYED IN THE OFFICE FOR MOST OF THE VISIT AND WATCHED SUGGA PIE DO HER THING WITH "DIVA SEARCH"--MY BOSS IS FIENDING FOR ME TO COME BACK BUT HE HAS TO UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN THE TIME COMES AND IM READY AND ABLE IT WILL HAPPEN-GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT- MONDAY I WENT TO ACUPUNCTURE AND WAS HOPING TO GET SOME RELIEF FROM THE PAINFUL ITCHING AND
TINGLING EXPERIENCE OF THE SHINGLES-- NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED YET-YESTERDAY I PLANNED MY DAY AND DID SOME ERRANDS JUST TO GET BACK IN TIME FOR TYLER PERRYS SHOW THAT AIRED ON UPN-- I WASNT THAT IMPRESSED(WERE U?)-AFTER THE SHOW I TOOK A TYLENOL PM AND WAS LAID OUT IN A FIERCE FRENCH ONION DIP TILL ABOUT 9AM THIS MORN--MY HOME ATTENDANT CAME LATE AND I WAS IN A FOUL MOOD- I DIDNT EVEN ANSWER THE DOOR--I KNOW WHAT U ARE THINKING"HOW MEAN OF U HARMONICA!"--SHE IS NOTORIOUS FOR COMING LATE AND NOT CALLING TO SAY SO - I ALWAYS LET HER LEAVE EARLY SO DONT PLAY ME BOO-I HAVE A DINNER AND ANTM DATE FOR TOMORROW--NOT A DATE DATE JUST A SISTER SISTER CLUTCH-- THANKS FOR YOUR LOVE AND COMMENTS-- WE SHALL TALK SOON OR MAYBE I WILL MEET U AT THE BENEFIT SHOW 5/18 -CIAO

HEY ALL- I KNOW I PROMISED YOU TWO ENTRIES FOR YESTERDAY BUT I DECIDED TO TAKE IT EASY AND JUST REST--I AM UP BRIGHT AND EARLY(AS USUAL)-- THE DOCTORS APPT WENT WELL -HE IS OPEN TO ME BEING A PART OF THE TREATMENT PROGRAM AND SOMETIMES THATS HARD TO FIND IN A DOCTOR--MY LABWORK THAT WE BOTH WERE ANXIOUSLY WAITING FOR GOT LOST IN THE SYSTEM AND WONT BE AVAIL TILL MONDAY - SO AS MY FELLOW POZ READERS KNOW ALREADY(NO LAB WORK =NOT MUCH TO TALK ABOUT)--I DID GAIN 14LBS (APPLAUSE)- I HAVE ANOTHER 24-30 TO GET BACK TO MY STANDARD WEIGHT-- HE ALSO COMMENTED ON ME LOOKING MUCH STRONGER AND HEALTHIER COMPARED TO MY INITIAL VISIT--I AM GOING BACK TO THE CLINIC ON MONDAY FOR AN ACCUPUNCTURE APPT AND HE MAY HAVE SOME #'S FOR ME- I AM NOW PREPARING TO VISIT MY SISTER AND HELP HER AS MUCH AS I CAN ESPECIALLY SINCE SHE HAS BEEN THERE 4 ME-- U SEE BOTH MY PARENTS ARE DECEASED AND ITS JUST US AND HER 6YEAR OLD DAUGHTER -WE NEED EACH OTHER AND NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO DO MY PART DURING HER TIME OF CRISIS- LET'S CLOSE FOR NOW AND WE SHALL TALK ON SUNDAY-CIAO

SO MUCH DRAMA AND SO LITTLE RELIEF FROM IT - ON A GOOD NOTE - MY SISTER WAS SENT HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL (TOO SOON FOR ME) BUT ITS IN GODS HANDS AND ALL WILL BE WELL-- THANK U FOR YOUR PRAYERS- ON A SHADY NOTE-- PARIS HAS BURNT AND FURONDA IS GASPING FOR AIR!-- DAMN SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I TAKE A WED NITE OFF FROM TV--THE SHIT HITS THE FAN --AT THIS POINT IM OVER BOTH SHOWS (ANTM AND IDOL) BUT BEING THE NOSY PERSON I AM I WILL MAKE SURE TO BE PERCHED FOR THESE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS-- QUESTION OF THE WEEK - WHY IS JADE STILL ON THE SHOW? WHY IS THE GRAY HAIRED GUY STILL ON IDOL? - IF U HAVE THE ANSWER COMMENT AND I WILL SEND U A PACK OF M&M'S --- TODAY I HAVE MY SECOND VISIT WITH THE DOCTOR -- I KNOW I HAVE GAINED SOME WEIGHT (THANK U JESUS)AND WE ALSO HAVE TO REVIEW MY BLOODWORK AND AN ALTERNATIVE TO KALETRA--HE MAY NEED TO PRESCRIBE SOMETHING FOR MY SHINGLES ATTACK -- ITS GONE BUT THE PAIN AND ITCHING ARE WEARING ME OUT --I FEEL LIKE ONE OF THE GURLS WHO GET THEIR HAIR BRAIDED AND THEY BE PATTING THAT SHIT ALL DAY SINCE THEY CAN'T SCRATCH IT(LOL)-- THIS IS AN EARLY EDITION OF THE BLOG --IM SURE I WILL BE BACK ON LATER TODAY --U GUYS ENJOY THE WEATHER-- WHERE DO THE KIDS GO THESE DAYS ON FRIDAY NITE?NOT THAT IM VENTURING OUT LIKE THAT BUT A GIRL HAS GOT TO BE KEPT UP ON THESE THINGS JUST IN CASE!
CIAO

THIS MORNING AFTER MUCH NEEDED REST I WOKE UP TO FIND OUT THAT MY ONLY SISTER AT AGE 39 HAD A STROKE- I WAS DEVASTATED- SHE IS DOING FINE BUT WE HAVE TO WATCH HER FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS SINCE SHE IS STILL CONSIDERED IN THE DANGER ZONE--FOLKS THIS IS SERIOUS- WE REALLY HAVE TO LOOK AT OUR DIETS AND MAKE SOME MAJOR CHANGES - THERE IS SO MUCH JUNK OUT THERE BEING SOLD AS FOOD AND WE JUST HAVE TO BE SMARTER CONSUMERS --WE NEED TO INCLUDE MORE FRUITS AND VEGETABLES IN OUR DAILY DIET IN ORDER TO COMBAT ILLNESS AND DISEASE--IM A FIRM BELIEVER IN THIS-- IM NOT HERE TO PREACH JUST TO EDUCATE-- AS AN AFRICAN AMERICAN MALE RISK FACTORS ARE VERY HIGH FOR STROKE/HEART ATTACK DUE TO OUR EATING HABITS,OBESITY AND HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE--THINK ABOUT IT PLEASE!--ON ANOTHER NOTE THE WELFARE VISIT WENT WELL -THERE WERE LIKE 200 FORMS TO FILL OUT AND SIGNATURES NEEDED FOR THEM ALL- SO MUCH DRAMA AND INFO NEEDED FOR $210.00 A MONTH!THE WOMAN ALSO TOLD ME I WOULD BE ELIGIBLE FOR FOOD STAMPS SHE JUST DIDNT KNOW HOW MUCH-- SO NOW ITS A WAIT AND SEE-AS I SAID IN A PREVIOUS ENTRY THIS WOULD TIDE ME OVER UNTIL SOMETHING ELSE COMES UP AND BEGGARS CANT BE CHOOSY!--I KNOW FOR A FACT THIS IS A TEST OF MY FAITH AND THE GOOD LORD WILL SEE ME THROUGH THIS-- IF AND WHEN U READ THIS SAY A SPECIAL PRAYER FOR MY SISTER I WOULD APPRECIATE IT- I HAVE ALREADY PRAYED AND LEFT IT IN GOD'S HANDS--I DIDNT GET TO WATCH TOP MODEL OR AMERICAN IDOL SINCE I WAS FEELING KINDA BLAH - SO ONE OF U ANGELS OUT THERE PLEASE FILL ME IN!-- BEDTIME IS CALLING SINCE I HAVE A LONG DAY TOMORROW AT THE HOSPITAL TAKING CARE OF MY SIS IN THE SAME MANNER THAT SHE DID FOR ME WHEN I WAS PERCHED AT ST. VINCENTS- THIS WILL BE A ROUGH TIME
FOR ME AND HER BEING OUT OF COMMISSION BUT I KNOW THIS TOO SHALL PASS-- TALK SOON

HEY GUYS - BEEN TAKING IT EASY FOR THE LAST TWO DAYS JUST RESTING -- FINALLY GETTING SOME SLEEP SINCE I CUT MY DOSE IN HALF I FEEL SOME RELIEF--THE HEADACHES AND INSOMNIA ARE BARELY THERE ON 1/2DOSE-- I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT THE MEDICINE IS GOOD BUT WE ALSO HAVE TO INCORPORATE OTHER HEALING MODALITIES TO BOOST OUR IMMUNE SYSTEM AS WELL- MODALITES THAT DONT HAVE SIDE EFFECTS-FOR EXAMPLE ACUPUNCTURE,MASSAGE, HERBS, YOGA, VISUALIZATION AND POSITIVE THINKING CAN REALLY HELP A PERSON WITH HEALTH ISSUES-- TODAY IS THE DAY I GET MY WELFARE VISIT- I HAVE A GOOD GIRLFRIEND WHO PULLED SOME STRINGS AND IM GETTING A HOME VISIT AROUND 10AM THIS MORN-- DOES THAT MEAN I HAVE TO HIDE THE 3 FLAT SCREEN TV'S , THE SURROUND SOUND HOME ENTERTAINMENT SYSTEM AND MY 2 FUR COATS?---WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WITH THIS - ITS NOT MUCH BUT ITS SOMETHING TO HOLD ME OVER TILL PLAN B(DISABILITY) OR PLAN C(A NEW JOB) KICKS IN --MANY PEOPLE ARE WONDERING WHEN I WILL RETURN TO WORK - THE BOTTOM LINE ON THAT ISSUE FOLKS IS THAT HARMONICA SUNBEAM IS CURRENTLY ON TOUR IN INDONESIA AND PROBABLY WONT BE BACK TILL EARLY 2007-- I REALLY NEED TIME TO GET DORIAN TOGETHER FIRST B4 I CAN TAKE ON THE RESPONSIBILITY OF BEING HARMONICA--SOUNDS WEIRD BUT THINK ABOUT IT-- I NEED TO BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO THE STAGE AND GIVE IT MY ALL THE WAY IT USED TO BE --I REFUSE TO COME BACK AND BE HALF-ASSED-I HAVE ALSO HAD SOME TIME TO THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO DO AND AT THE PRESENT MOMENT I DONT THINK I WILL BE DOING THAT MUCH DRAG IN THE NEAR FUTURE SO IT WILL BE MORE OF A CATCH IT AS U CAN SITUATION -- I WILL EXPLAIN MORE OF THIS IN DETAIL LATER ON-- GOD BLESS TO ALL THE ANGELS OUT THERE LOOKING OUT FOR ME DURING THIS TEST OF FAITH -- I APPRECIATE IT ALL FROM THE EMAILS TO THE DONATIONS TO THE PHONE CALLS-- THANKS A BUNCH- YOUR KINDNESS WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED