TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I DIDNT GET THE PART IN THE LEE DANIELS MOVIE"PUSH". I DIDNT EVEN GET A CHANCE TO AUDITION AS DORIAN. AFTER NUMEROUS PHONE CALLS TO SETUP THE SECOND AUDITION, I PHONED MY AGENT AND TOLD HIM OF MY DILEMMA. HE INFORMED ME THAT IT WAS HIS JOB TO CALL AND ARRANGE SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND SO I GAVE HIM THE INFO AND HE TOOK CARE OF IT. HE CALLED ME BACK WITHIN TWENTY MINUTES AND SAID "HE WAS TOLD THE PART WAS GIVEN AWAY BECAUSE I HAD TAKEN TOO LONG TO RESPOND". I THOUGHT "HOW COULD THIS BE WHEN NO ONE EVER RETURNED MY CALL TO SET UP THE DAMN APPT. "? OH WELL. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I WILL CONTINUE TO AUDITION AND "PUSH" MY WAY THRU IN THIS CRAZED WORLD OF ENTERTAINMENT. THE SECOND SHADY INCIDENT CAME THIS WEEK AS WELL. I WAS INTERVIEWED FOR FLAVALIFE MAGAZINE SOMETIME BACK. AFTER RESPONDING TO NUMEROUS PERSONAL QUESTIONS, I NEVER HEARD FROM THE INTERVIEWER AGAIN(QUEER KID OF COLOR). MONTHS LATER HE HITS ME UP ASKING FOR PICS FOR THE ARTICLE ASAP. I DIDN'T LIKE HIS TONE AT ALL OR THE FACT THAT HE HAD BEEN MIA. I THEN ASKED HIM COULD I AT LEAST SEE THE ARTICLE B4 IT GOES TO PRINT AND I HAVENT HEARD FROM HIM SINCE. I ASSUME THE INTERVIEW WILL STILL BE PUBLISHED JUST PICTURELESS. BE ON THE LOOKOUT FOR IT AND I WILL TOO. THESE TWO INCIDENTS ONLY SERVE TO MAKE ME A STRONGER PERSON AND I WILL JUST PUT IT DOWN AS ONE OF LIFE'S LESSION.BE WELL AND I SHALL WRITE AGAIN REAL SOON.

With God-given creativity, I move on to new opportunities.
Never wanting to limit our good, we accept the new good that awaits us in every new stage of life. We have moved from being children ourselves to perhaps raising children of our own.
We may feel like a new person in each of our roles as we reach higher levels of development. We understand that each phase enriches our lives.
Some of us may now be facing a time when we live in a home without children and have time to pursue new careers and interests. With our God-given creativity, we have much to give in life, and we would not want to stop moving on to new situations and opportunities. Each one contains the seed of joy that, in time, grows into a joyfulness of spirit that enriches us and all those who share our lives.
"Then the Israelites set out by stages from the wilderness of Sinai, and the cloud settled down in the wilderness of Paran."-Numbers 10:12

HEY GUYS. HOPING ALL IS WELL IN YOUR WORLD. THE MIDTERMS ARE ALMOST OVER FOR ME. I HAVE A TAKE HOME PYSCH EXAM THAT IS DUE TOMORROW AND MY COLLEGE SURVIVAL SKILLS MIDTERM WILL BE DONE ON TUESDAY. I THINK I DID FAIRLY WELL ON THE 3 I TOOK LAST WEEK. I SHOULD FIND OUT MY RESULTS THIS WEEK COMING. BESIDES THE MIDTERM HOOPLA I HAD THE HONOR AND PLEASURE OF MEETING AND AUDITIONING FOR LEE DANIELS. SOME OF U MAY KNOW HIS WORK(MONSTER'S BALL, THE WOODSMAN AND SHADOW BOXER). HE IS DOING A NEW MOVIE AND I AUDITIONED. HE LIKED ME AND WANTED TO MEET ME IN PERSON. HE THOUGHT ABOUT CHANGING THE ROLE SOME AND ASKED ME TO COME BACK(WITHOUT MY WIG AND DRESS) AND READ AS A GUY. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME B4 BUT IF ALL GOES WELL AND I GET THE PART IT WOULD OPEN UP LOTS OF DOORS FOR ME IN THE ACTING WORLD. I WILL KEEP U POSTED ON THIS AS WELL. MY HEALTH AND GENERAL LIFE ARE GOOD. I HAVE ADAPTED WONDERFULLY TO MY NEW SCHEDULE OF ONLY GOING OUT TO THE LIBRARY, WORK OR GYM. THE LOCKDOWN IS DOING ME JUST FINE. UNTIL NEXT TIME, TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS.

Expressing my gratitude, I open my life to infinite good.
When I awaken each morning, I have an opportunity to set my expectations for what the day offers me. With a grateful heart, I express my thanks to God and open my heart and mind to wonderful possibilities.
As I rise from my night’s rest, open and receptive to the gifts God has for me, I deepen my gratitude for the good—past, present, and future-that is mine. I allow my attitude of thanksgiving, in this moment and in every moment, to help me become more receptive to the happiness and peace I was created to experience. Expressing my gratitude, I open my life to infinite good.
"I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart, and I will glorify your name forever. For great is your steadfast love toward me."-Psalm 86:12-13

TIME IS FLYING BY FOLKS AS I SIT MY ASS DOWN THIS WEEKEND AND PREPARE FOR NEXT WEEKS MIDTERM EXAMS. I ONLY HAVE 4 BUT THEY ALL WILL TAKE SOME SERIOUS DEDICATION AND COMMITTMENT OVER THE WEEKEND SO I CAN DO WELL. IT JUST SO HAPPENS THAT I AM OFF FRIDAY AND SAT SO THAT GIVES ME AMPLE TIME TO CONSTRUCT A TIME SCHEDULE TO STUDY EACH SUBJECT. SUNDAY I HAVE A DOUBLE AT ESCUELITA SO THAT WILL BE MY DAY OF REST AND THEN ON MONDAY I WILL TEST MYSELF TO SEE IF I HAVE RETAINED ANYTHING FROM FRI AND SAT. ON TUESDAY THE MADNESS BEGINS-- I WILL KEEP U POSTED. ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND AND SAY A PRAYER FOR ME.

God is guiding and inspiring me in every needed way.
Turning within in a time of prayer and meditation, I release any concerns about this day or the days ahead.
"God, I trust You to be my guide and the inspiration for the fulfillment of all that is mine to be and do. In communion with You, I know that I am being guided and inspired in every needed way. Although I may not see the precise way things will work out, I know that, with You, they will-regardless of how challenging circumstances may at first seem.
"I have faith that You are guiding the people I care about, for Your presence is within them also. My faith has strengthened in this time of prayer with You, dear God." Now with clarity and peace, I return to my day.
"I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you."-Psalm 32:8

From Tyler Perry:
writer and actor

I was walking to my car when this woman who appeared to be homeless started walking towards me. I'm ashamed to say this but I thought, "I don't feel like being hustled today." Then I got quickly convicted. I felt guilty so I started digging in my pocket for some money. As she got closer I noticed that she had the kindest eyes that I had ever seen. As I was reaching into my pocket she started to speak. I thought, "Here goes the sales pitch". She said "Excuse me sir, I need some shoes. Can you help me?" My eyes filled with water because I remember being out on the streets and having only one pair of run over shoes. I was taken aback for a second.

I took her inside the studio and had my wardrobe people find shoes in her size. As she put the shoes on she started crying, praising God and thanking Jesus, and saying, "My feet are off the ground! My feet are off the ground!" Several of the wardrobe people started crying. I was crying. But I never forgot those words. "My feet are off the ground!" I thought, "Wow! All she wanted was some shoes." She quickly disappeared and never asked me for a dime. I realized that I still had the money in my hand so I went out looking for her. She was gone just that quick so I looked all around the neighborhood for her. I found her standing on a corner looking down at her shoes, still crying. I was so touched. I asked her how she had gotten homeless. She told me that she had AIDS and that she was waiting to get into a shelter. She said that her family had turned their backs on her and that she had no place to go, but she knew that God would make a way for her. I said to myself, "He just did." Her faith and her praise moved me. I took her to a nearby hotel and put her up until she was able to get on her feet. I had someone that worked for me to check on her from time to time and to make sure that she had food and clothes. After about a month or so we lost touch, but I never forgot her.

This past summer I was shooting "Daddy's Little Girls" and this woman walks up to me smiling. I didn't recognize her face, but her eyes were familiar. She had on a really nice dress and her hair was done. It was her! She told me that the little help that I had given her had changed her life. She was in a house now and doing very well.

I said all of that to say this. After I met this woman, every time I think about complaining and mumbling I remember, "My feet are off the ground!"

~Tyler Perry

All is working together for my highest good.
I don't let myself become so enmeshed in the circumstances of the moment that I am not aware of the order that is always taking place. And looking back on a series of events in my life, I see the way circumstances have fallen into place to bring about good.
At all times and in all circumstances, the power of God's love is bringing forth good for me. I keep this truth in mind as I go about my day. Whether I am facing a major event, planning a move, or just driving to the store, my faith in God is strong. I know that any rough places ahead will be made smooth.
My walk in life is one of faith, of knowing that everything is working together for my highest good. I give thanks for the divine order at work in my life.
"I will lead the blind … by paths they have not known I will guide them."—Isaiah 42:16

HEY GUYS, JUST CHECKING IN TO SAY ALL IS WELL HERE. THIS PAST WEEK I DID MY FIRST JURY DUTY STINT EVER. I SERVED 1 1/2 DAYS IN THE HOLDING AREA WAITING TO BE CALLED. I WAS TOLD AS A COLLEGE STUDENT THAT THE JUDGE WOULD EXCUSE ME ONCE I GOT CALLED FOR A CASE BUT I NEVER GOT THAT FAR. THE REST OF THE WEEK WAS SPENT BETWEEN WORK AND SCHOOL. WE ARE RAPIDLY APPROACHING MIDTERMS AND IM QUITE PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE"SO FAR, SO GOOD". I AM STAYING ON TOP OF MY STUDIES AND MANAGING TO HAVE SOME FREE TIME FOR MYSELF AS WELL. THIS PAST SUNDAY WAS A REALLY GREAT BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR A GOOD FRIEND AND CUSTOMER AT ESCUELITA. GERARD CAME IN FULL FORCE WITH FAMILY, FRIENDS AND TWO DIFFERENT BIRTHDAY CAKES. I PREMIERED MY BUSTED BRITNEY "GIMME MORE" NUMBER AND THE CROWD THOROUGHLY ENJOYED IT.I MAY POST IT ON YOUTUBE REAL SOON. THIS WEEK WILL BE VERY BUSY FOR ME WORKWISE SO I NEED TO TAKE IT ALL AND STRIDE AND REST ACCORDINGLY. I WILL REPORT BACK LATER IN THE WEEK TO LET U KNOW HOW THINGS ARE COMING ALONG. BE WELL AND TAKE CARE.