NYC PRIDE IS HERE AND THE GAYBORHOOD IS QUITE FESTIVE. FAGS, DRAGS , LESBOS AND OTHERS COME FROM ALL OVER THE GLOBE TO CELEBRATE THEIR GAYNESS. I LOVE NYC PRIDE! DESPITE THE FACT THAT SINCE I STARTED WORKING ON SUNDAYS AT ESCO TEN YEARS AGO I HAVENT BEEN TO A PARADE OR VILLAGE OUTING SINCE ON PRIDE, I STILL WELCOME AND EMBRACE THE MOMENT. TODAY HAPPENS TO BE A VERY SPECIAL FAMILY DAY FOR ME AS WELL. MY DEAR COUSING NAJIYYAH WHO HAS BEEN TO MY SHOW ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS IS GETTING MARRIED TODAY(OF ALL DAMN DAYS). I AM HONORED TO BE THE HOST (NO DRAG TILL LATER ON IN THE EVENING) OF THE RECEPTION, WHERE I WILL TRY MY DAMNDEST TO BE AS HETERO SOUNDING AS POSSIBLE(CHILE PLEASE). FOR THOSE OF YOU HERE IN TOWN AND YOU LOCALS, ENJOY YOURSELF, STOP BY ESCUELITA IF U CAN AND BE SAFE. WE SHALL CHAT REAL SOON.

Faith
I am a radiant creation of God, ready for the blessings of this day.
How do I overcome a challenging situation? I have faith in God, and I express the divine qualities that are inherent within me to move beyond the challenge.
Faith helps me to grow in a multitude of ways, for it is a perceiving power that gives shape to the good in life. I give expression to an innate ability and a calling to let my divine nature come forward each day.
Faith in God helps me to know who I am. It gives me new insights about the person I can be. Through the guiding spirit of God within, I meet all situations with poise and confidence-even enthusiasm!
I look to this wonderful day and the blessings that it holds for me, remembering that I am a radiant creation of God.
"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you-you of little faith!"-Luke 12:28

HEY KIDS, SORRY FOR THE DELAY. MAMA SUNBEAM DASHED TO LA FOR A QUICK AND MUCH NEEDED GETAWAY. I GOT A CHANCE TO VISIT SOME OLD AND NEW FRIENDS. I WENT WITH A GOOD BUDDY FERNANDO FROM ATLANTA WHO STAYED A FEW DAYS LONGER AND THEN DASHED TO ALASKA FOR HIS BIRTHDAY(U GO BOY). I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE HORDES OF BALD HEADED MEXICAN BOYS WITH ARCHED EYEBROWS AND GANG BANGER CLOTHING. WE WENT TO ROSCOES HOUSE OF CHICKEN AND WAFFLES AND BY THE INFAMOUS HOT DOG PLACE PINK'S. THE TRIP WAS WAY TOO SHORT FOR ME BUT I WAS JUST HAPPY TO BE ON THE WEST COAST. TRUST AND BELIEVE I WILL BE HEADING THAT WAY AGAIN REALLY SOON. WHILE I WAS THERE, MY AGENT CALLED AND SET UP AN AUDITON FOR ME (WHICH HAPPENS TODAY) FOR A OFF BROADWAY PLAY. THE PART IS VERY ME SO KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED AND I WILL SURELY LET U KNOW WHAT THE OUTCOME IS. UNTIL THEN TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS.

Many of us unconsciously believe that we’re unworthy or defective. We adopted this belief very early in our lives when the people we looked up to disapproved of our demands, wishes and behaviors. We concluded that we had to learn to be good.

Unfortunately, ‘being good’ usually meant giving up our own differences or uniqueness. We learned that we might get the love we wanted if we acted and felt like others wanted us to.

If we seek true joy and connection with life, we now need to remove these artificial masks and express our deep authentic nature.

"For all those years you’ve protected the seed. It’s time to become the beautiful flower."

-- Stephen C. Paul

THE HEATWAVE IS AMONGST US AND IT'S BRINGING OUT SOME MAJOR ATTITUDE. I AM HAPPY TO REPORT THAT I HAD A BUSY WORKING WEEKEND BUT NOT WITHOUT SOME DRAMA THROWN IN. FRIDAY NITE I HOSTED AT ESCUELITA 4 THE LESBIANS, IT WAS CUTE BUT THE ENERGY WAS OFF AND THAT WAS WEIRD SINCE IT WAS PUERTO RICAN PRIDE WEEKEND. SATURDAY I WENT TO A REPASS FOR MY FRIENDS FATHER AND THEN I HAD A HOT DATE WITH A CUTE LATINO BOY I MET THE PREVIOUS WEEK. WE WENT TO A FRIENDS BIRTHDAY BASH IN MANHATTAN WHERE I WAS PREPARED TO TELL HIM ABOUT "MY WORK". I HINTED AROUND IT AND DIDNT GET POSITIVE FEEDBACK SO I DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO TURN. I LET THE ISSUE DIE FOR THE MOMENT SO THAT WE COULD ENJOY OURSELVES. THE REST OF THE NITE WENT WELL AND I WALKED HIM TO THE LIRR.HE WANTED TO MEET ME ON SUNDAY BUT OF COURSE I HAD TO BE AT THE T-DANCE. I TOLD A SMALL LIE ABOUT WHERE I WOULD BE AND FELT LIKE SHIT AFTERWARDS. I REALLY NEED TO TELL HIM THIS WEEK AND PUT IT OUT THERE SO THAT WE COULD EITHER MOVE ON OR GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS. I THINK I AM READY FOR ANOTHER BOYFRIEND BUT WITH THIS TYPE OF WORK, THERE SEEMS TO BE SO GUYS MANY WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND OR DONT WANT TO BE BOTHERED. I GUESS I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT AND WAIT FOR THE ONE WHO ACCEPTS, APPRECIATES AND SEPARATES MY WORK FROM MY LIFE. ON SUNDAY , I HAD A BIG FEUD WITH MY BOSS AT ESCUELITA. HE DOESN'T BELIEVE IN GIVING THE GUESTS IN THE SHOW A FREE DRINK AND SENT ME 1/2 PRICE DRINK TICKETS FOR THEM. THE NERVE! ANY BAR OR CLUB THAT I WORK AT HAS ALWAYS GIVEN ME AT LEAST ONE FREE COCKTAIL. THE FEUD ESCALATED AND I LEFT B4 WORKING IN THE SECOND SHOW. ONLY TIME WILL TELL HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN PUT UP WITH SUCH NONSENSE. THAT'S IT FOR NOW , STAY COOL AND REMEMBER JESUS LOVES U!

JUST GETTING HOME FROM A LONG NITE. I SHOT THE SECOND SCENE FOR THE UNTITLED MOVIE I BOOKED LAST MONTH. IT WENT VERY WELL AND THE WEATHER WAS GOOD THIS TIME. I CANT WAIT FOR U ALL TO SEE HOW BUSTED I LOOK IN THIS FLICK. I DIDNT SHAVE AND THEY BARELY PUT ANY MAKEUP ON . HOT MESS INCORPORATED! I WILL KEEP U POSTED ON WHEN ITS COMING OUT. IN OTHER NEWS, I AM HEADING TO CHICAGO FOR THE FOURTH OF JULY WEEKEND AND WILL BE TRYING TO GATHER UP SOME GIGS WHILE IM THERE. I HAVE ALREADY GOTTEN SOME FEEDBACK AND I DO HOPE THAT AT LEAST ONE COMES THRU. DUE TO MY RECENT DC DRAMA , THINGS HAVE CHANGED IN HOW I HANDLE SHIT. IN OTHER NEWS, IT'S GONNA BE A HOT PUERTO RICAN PRIDE WEEKEND AND MAYBE I WILL SEE U ALL OUT ON SUNDAY OR EVEN TUESDAY AT THE CAGE. UNTIL NEXT TIME , TAKE CARE AND BE WELL.

This older white guy asked his older black friend, 'Are you voting for Barack Obama just because he's black'?

So the older black guy fires back and says, 'Are you not voting for him because he's black?

Why can't I vote for him just cause he's black?

Hell in this country men are pulled over everyday just cause their black, passed over for promotions just cause their black, considered to be criminals just cause their black, but you don't seem to have a problem with that

This country was built with the sweat and whip off the slaves back, and now a descendent of those same slaves has a chance to lead the same country where we weren't even considered to be people,

Where we weren't allowed to be educated, drink from the same water fountains, eat in the same restaurants, or even vote, so you damn right I'm going to vote for him!

Not just because he's black,

But because he is hope, he is change, and he now allows me to understand when my grandson says he wants to be president when he grows up, it is not a fairy tale but a short term goal,

Because he sees, understand, and knows, he can achieve, withstand, and do anything just because he's black!

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Forwarded Message:
Subj: Because He's BLACK!
Date: 6/4/2008 11:27:44 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time
From: Contact COREY
To: blacklovenyc
CC: Africalico

Because He's Black

This older white guy asked his older black friend, 'Are you voting for Barack Obama just because he's black'?

So the older black guy fires back and says, 'Are you not voting for him because he's black?

Why can't I vote for him just cause he's black?

Hell in this country men are pulled over everyday just cause their black, passed over for promotions just cause their black, considered to be criminals just cause their black, but you don't seem to have a problem with that

This country was built with the sweat and whip off the slaves back, and now a descendent of those same slaves has a chance to lead the same country where we weren't even considered to be people,

Where we weren't allowed to be educated, drink from the same water fountains, eat in the same restaurants, or even vote, so you damn right I'm going to vote for him!

Not just because he's black,

But because he is hope, he is change, and he now allows me to understand when my grandson says he wants to be president when he grows up, it is not a fairy tale but a short term goal,

Because he sees, understand, and knows, he can achieve, withstand, and do anything just because he's black!